Monday, June 2, 2008

AHHHHHH!!!!

I was talking to my mom this morning ( we talk every morning while I am on my way to work) and we were talking about Kelly (surprise!) And she told me that she has been picking at her face again (not a good sign) so she looks like she did when she was doing all the crack. She has been talking to this guy she used to do drugs with (again, not a good sign) and last night someone was calling the house at 2:00 a.m.
You know what I’m really not sad. I am pissed. All I can think is what a stupid bitch!! She doesn’t give a shit about anyone but her and she must not care about herself very much either. I actually want to leave work, drive to her work and punch her in the face!! (not a healthy reaction but I bet it would make me feel better :)
I feel like I don’t even F*** care anymore. Why should I waste my time caring about her. She is an asshole. I am just so mad.
If this what she wants to do she should leave mom’s house and just go do it. She should quit acting like she is really trying to stay clean. She isn’t fooling anyone and she is so arrogant she probably thinks she is that she is just that slick. Like we have no idea.
I could go on an on I am so mad.
This is NOT FAIR!!! I know I sound like I am having a tantrum but I am so mad (can you tell). I feel so helpless. There is nothing we can do. We have tried everything. There is really nothing else to do.
It sounds mean but I wish she would just go somewhere else.

3 comments:

pat said...

You hang in there and take care of yourself. The one thing we cannot control is another person especially the addict.

Fractalmom said...

It's not even mean honey. My three other kids cannot stand their sister anymore, don't even like being in the same room with her.

then, me. I said, I wish she would either get ON a bus, or get HIT by a bus, and I am not sure I care which one happens....

Fractalmom said...

It's not fair. Every one of my other three kids now hates their sister. They cannot even stand to be in the same room.

I once said, I wish she would get on a bus, or get hit by a bus, and I am not sure which.

There is no way to make this easier. It is what it is.